Noah Davis, A Narrative of the Life of Rev. Noah Davis

I went to my mother, and asked her the question– “How do people feel, when they get converted?” She replied, “Do you think you are converted?” Now, this was a severe trial; for, although I felt that I was really changed, yet I wanted to hear from her, before I could decide whether I was actually converted, or not. I replied, “No.” Then she said, “My son, the devil makes people think themselves converted, sometimes.” I arose, and left immediately, believing that the devil had made a fool of me. I returned to my shop, more determined to pray than ever before and tried to get under that same weight, that I had felt pressing me down, but a short while before. But I could not; and, instead of feeling sad, I felt joyful in my heart; and while trying to pray, I thought the Saviour appeared to me. I thought I saw God smiling upon me, through Christ, His Son. My soul was filled with love to God and Jesus Christ. I felt, that if I was only converted, I would tell all sinners how precious the Saviour was. But I could not think myself converted yet, because I could not see what I had done, for God to pardon my sins. Still I felt a love to Him for what He had done for my soul. It was several months after that, before I was made to realize this to be the work of God; and when it was made plain, O what joy it did bring to my poor soul!